The view from my bedroom window through the seasons. Absolutely gonna miss this place. But I’m not gonna lie, as much as I love living in this city, nothing will ever beat the feelings living under the same roof with your beloved ones. Can hardly wait to go home.

Semoga waktu tidurku tidak terjajah oleh disertasi lagi, merdeka! #maknamerdekayangsesungguhnya #feelinlikeawalkinzombierightnow #hidupseganmatitakmau #kapankelarnya #finalsubmsissionudahdidepanmata

You got me so addicted to the drama
I tell myself I’m done with wicked games
But then I get so numb with all the laughter
That I forget about the pain

Cause being with you, turns my whole world upside down
With the highest highs
And the lowest lows
There is just no middle ground

#kgn #yowisbaliknesislagi #kthxforthedistraction #theclockisticking #menujuinadmsc2017 #tuhantolongbantuakuplis

You leave
But you dont stay gone
Why do you do that
Abandon the thing you want to keep
Why do you linger
In a  place you do not want to stay
Why do you think it’s okay to do both
Go and return all at once

– Rupi Kaur

Lagi video call sama Mama dan Kak Rani.

R: Bon, batere gue tinggal 5%. Kalo nanti mati yaudah ya…

I: Iya, biarin aja. Tunggu sampe mati aja kak.

M: Heh, Mama masih hidup. Belom mati. Nak durako!

Mak Resnaaa. Alhamdulillah ya Ma dah bisa nyambung dikit walaupun masi miskom :))

I can’t really remember what that dream was all about. But I remember crying so hard that when I woke up this morning, I felt tears rolling down my cheeks, my whole body was shaking. The pain is inevitable, even my subconscious keeps reminding me of it, of you.